Wish I was a Donut....LMAO

Ok so I found this poem....its SO wrong, but OMGosh is it funny!!!

I Wish I Was A Donut I wish I was a donut And get eaten every day To stick on someone's fingers In a most delightful way I wish I was a donut Sugar coated just for fun Full and round for easy grip And a hole to put your tongue I wish I was a donut Long and filled with custard cream Delicious on the taste buds A succulent silken dream Copyright; Therese

Sigh....

I need to get away!  Away from HR, away from VA....just AWAY!!  I want to get in the car, on a plane, train, no bus..ick, a cruise ship, something and just be able to relax and have some fun!  No stress, drama, none of that bs.   Yeah I know its not going to happen....ever, but a girl can dream right?  I don't even have to have anything super fancy, just fun and relaxing.  Oh well something else to add to the wish list I reckon....

People......

I don't like people!  Plain and simple, I don't know how much more plain English I can put it I don't like people right now.  If one more friggin person that has NO clue even thinks of saying how quickly this deployment will go I will scream!!!  I don't give a rats ass how much Josh and I do or don't get along, that is NOT the point.  The point is he is leaving behind his family for an extended period of time.  Very little communication (which lets admit he is not that great at in the first place), and a toddler that is on his shirt tales.  So YOU tell me how quickly it would go by for you??!!!?  And DO NOT tell me I married him!!  No shit I married him, does that mean I have to like the fact that he is leaving?   Does it mean I should put my daughters cheer outfit on her and get her pom pom's?  It does not mean I am not proud, don't stand behind or any of that....no it means I am a normal person that DOESN'T want to hear crap from somebody that really has zero clue what to say, so they say something that makes my blood pressure so high that I almost have a stroke!  Then to make matters even worse just because of who you are other people automatically feel obligated to go along with you!! ARGH!!!!!  Ok devils advocate ya'll may mean well but really ...just stop...please.  If you don't know what to say.  Just say something like "Stay safe", "Hurry home", "If you need anything let us know", etc you get the picture right?  NEVER say things about how short the time is going to be, or how quick it will pass, or "oh its just that long", something like that.  That is just a sure fire way to piss me off.  And again because I KNOW some smart ass will read this and go "well as much as ya'll fight the break will do you good"  and you know what it just might.  But I have a bigger picture to look at, and that involves more then just me.   So in this instance if you have never been there done that, or if you have and your one of those "oh I use this time to make blankets for people w/o blankets and so it flys by".  Can just bite me ok? :o) Ok well I have gotten it off of my chest so thanks for now....ta ta

Games

I'm not a huge fan of games, I think the reason is because the rules always seem to change for the more popular players.  For example I'm playing this "game" right now, I asked about a certain rule this morning and I was given an answer.  Another player asked about the SAME rule later this evening, and was given a different answer.  Basically what I was told was wrong for me to do is ok for her?  I call b.s, and I am about over it to be honest.  There are over 50 players in this game, they won't miss me, need me, or anything else.  Don't get me wrong I love some of the other people playing the game, I really honestly do.  But don't give me the oh its ok for her but not you crap.  Yes previsions are made...but not different friggin rules!!  Anyways whatever seems my life anymore is about me doing what makes everybody else happy.  I don't think my happiness matters to anybody.  Everybody keeps telling me for me to do what makes me happy, yet when I try all that ends up happening is more stuff that causes me to be unhappy and sad.  So PLEASE tell me how to be happy....I'm begging "you".

What am I thinking....

So I have this crazy idea that in a years time I will be able to run a 5k! I know funny stuff right? But if I can do it then I'm going to do it at WDW. And Diem is going to run a 400m dash and maybe a mile. So when taxes come back I am going to get a Wii fit and do this! I could really use all the encouragement that I can get so...

On another note the Facebook fan page for Bowman Wanser has been launched, so you should come by and take a look! More pics will be added very soon! There is also a shoot lined up for this area with a slot or two open if anybody is interested please contact me. The facebook fan page is here.

Anyways that's about it in the exciting world of me ...still looking for a house, well found two that we love.  I hate waiting on a Realtor.  They are the worst!!   How difficult is it to call a person back?  Anyways, I guess that's all...lol. 

Not that it matters...

But I miss being content and feeling at home. I don't feel at home even in my own house. I hope that when we move that will change. I want to start off organized, not just an organized mess. I want it to feel like a home, not just a place that I live. So IKEA here I come!! I want one of those stainless steel trash cans to, you know the ones you don't have to touch, and a real t.v!! A spot for the shoes, not just friggin kicked wth ever they happen to land!

Its cold so I'm giving something away...

How about some Starbucks Hot Cocoa??  I have a thing of three tins each tin has a diff flavor.  What I want to know is what makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside?  It can be anything!   And yes I mean that!! LOL   Have fun!!
OH and if your not a PL...PLEASE don't forget to do by favor about two post down!!!  Thanks!

So...

So have you ever just had those day(s) that no matter if the person/people mean to or not, a certain few people just irritate the living crap out of you?  They don't really do anything wrong....I mean they might but it's nothing really "wrong" or major, but omg you just want to smack the breath out of them! LOL  And I'm pretty sure there are at least two people that feel the same way about me right now.  Do I care....sure I do.   I do anything about it, no so I'm not going to even bother trying.   Like for example I'm doing this befit thing in the PR, I usually love everybody doing it, now....eh.  And there are a few reasons why....first off I'm afraid to post anything or the grammar police might come after me...wtf?  Pardon me can you please past the mustard?  Why do I  NEED to post every single day what I do as long as its up by the end of the week?  So that people have more time to be critical of me?  Oh look so THAT'S why she is so fat!  I realize the people who did this put A LOT of hard work and effort into this,  and its prob just me.  But I SO wanted this to be fun this time...not make me want to cry..shrug. 
Then I have my friend who is not speaking to me because of a misunderstanding...that hurts A LOT, we never talked a lot like we should have but I love her and I want us to speak.  Life is to short, so if your reading this....you know who you are please can we love each other again? 
Then there is the never ending trying to please everybody crap.  Oh wait can I say crap? Yep because its MY blog!!   I can't believe people have the nerve to get on other peoples pages and whine about what they say! "OMG do you know you mother can see this"....Umm yeah as a matter of fact I do I accepted her friend req moron.  But ty for reminding me just in case I forgot.  Yeah do I maybe say some things I shouldn't ...sure...but am I an adult that needs to laugh sometimes because my life is not as perfect as yours obviously is?  Yes so I'm sorry!  But please feel free so send your semi charmed life my way any day ok Mary Poppins?  And on that note....don't say you can fully judge somebody looking through only half of a window, either look through all of it or don't look at all, that's kinda like watching a moving through your fingers. 
WOW maybe it's been to long since I have blogged or the new bc is just making me even more honest......SCARY! LMAO.....Love ya'll

Do me a favor Please?

So my FAVORITE company JJB is having a contest for who can get the most referals between now and Feb15th.  We can BOTH win a bag if you just become a fan on facebook, and/or follow them on twitter.  Basically read below and take like two min and fill the form out PLEASE.  Even if you don't have a baby/kid, it can be a gift!  It would mean a lot to me.  Thanks!

***Just following on FB would help A LOT Even if your a GUY...lol THANK YOU!!!***
P.S-My "name" is Fyrgrl if you do this...since is guess it's hard to find..LOL THANKS again!

Ju-Ju-Be, a company that makes awesome bags and other fun accessories, is having a referral contest! This is a chance for me AND you to earn some cool Ju-Ju-Be prizes, so I’m inviting you to join in the fun!

To enter the contest (and count as my referral), I’m asking my friends to do one of the following:

- Join the Ju-Ju-Be’s Pink Room message boards! http://www.ju-ju-be.com/PinkRoom/index.php
- Become their Facebook fan! http://www.facebook.com/jujubeintl
- Follow them on Twitter! twitter.com/jujube_inc
- Sign up for their email newsletter! http://tinyurl.com/ygo27qa

What could be better than access to up-to-date Ju-Ju-Be news, promotions and product launches, and more?!?

But wait! To actually count as my referral after you’ve done one or more of those, YOU HAVE TO GO TO THIS SITE –http://tinyurl.com/iheartjjb — which is the official entry into the contest. My Pink Room name is fyrgrl. You’ll need that for the entry form. That site also gives you a chance to win a bag for yourself as they’re choosing a winner from the new fans, too!

Take a look around Ju-Ju-Be’s site http://www.ju-ju-be.com/, and you’ll see just how great their products are. I’m also happy to tell you all about my favorite print and bag styles and…anything else you wanna know!

More contest details on Ju-Ju-Be’s blog! http://ju-ju-be.com/ju-ju-blog

Something to do....

Hi...so I have decided I need some excitment.  I want to gt in the car and just drive, see where I end up...but I'm a bit chicken...not because of me but to do it alone with Diem.  Maybe I can convince a friend or two to go on this adventure with me.  I don't want to be gone for lone just a day or so.  Just enough to get a break from reality you  know?  Have fun let my hair down say..ahhhh.  No he said she said b.s nothing. 
I got new glasses today, I didn't realize how bad my old ones were.  My contacts should be here soon.  I know that nobody really cares, but well whatever...lol. 
I miss work...I know nobody really misses me, but I miss it. 

Don't change

A word to the wise........if you do something that somebody else doesn't like and they ask you to change it.  Only change it if YOU really want to.  Because most likely if you do or not it really won't make a difference anyway.  They will still treat you the same, still have the same standards, and so in the long run it really won't make a difference.  People will keep acting how they want, you will continue to hurt, and the same person will care............nobody.

Waiting...

I found this poem online tonight, and it just fits.  Not verbatim of course, but pretty damn close. 

Waiting
  by Dawn D.

  Wanting,
  lusting,
  to be held,
  to be loved,
  to feel warmth,
  to feel your beating heart.
  Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,
  heartless winds.
  Falling into invisible arms;
  into an abyss of love.
  Wishing,
  hoping,
  that my desires will be filled; 
  my desires of loving warmth.
  Wanting to be held,
  comforted,
  loved.
  Dreaming of passionate embraces,
  of tender kisses,
  loving words,
  romantic nights.
  Waiting for undying love.

Thanks Susan....

I got this off of FACE BOOK from one of my best friends Susan.  I think it's great!

Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib, not from his feet to be walked on, not from his head to be superior, but from his side to be equal! Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved... 

People should read it and pay attention....all over this great country. 

Why...

Why speak....does anybody really hear you?  And if they do are they listening?

Why breath..  If you stop is anybody going to notice?  And if they do are they are they going to help you start breathing again?

Why cry... do the tears really accomplish anything?  I just get a headache, yet I can't help but cry sometimes.

Why love....are you ever really loved back?  Actions speak louder then words.  Most times all that gets heard anymore is a bunch of loud words.

Why make a promise......do you really want to do it?   Or are you just trying to shut up the person that asked the question?  Are you really listening when you answer in the first place?

Why no affection....is there no love?  Do you just not care....does anybody care.  Prob not.   I'm prob wrong ........again.

Why do you not realize that if you don't show me you love me....one day somebody else might show me attention.  But then I will be the wrong one.  But deep down will that make you happy? 

Why does everybody put everything on MY shoulders?  I have to say hi...I have to be the bigger person....I have to say sorry....I have to shut up....I have to do whatever...ME!!!  Why?!  Whats wrong with everybody else?  Why are "you" so much better then I am?  Just wondering....

A few observations....

People really need to thank each other more for the small things, like holding the door open at the store, letting you over in traffic, bringing you a drink just because you noticed theirs was empty.

Say hi...just because.  It won't hurt it wont take long.  Who cares if you live with the person, if you see them once a week, once a year, or if you just wish you could see them.

Don't get all pissy when somebody calls you out on something you know you are/were wrong on, and start pointing out every little fault in them.  Just because they called you out, and made you have to see that your not 10ft tall and bullet proof doesn't mean that...#1 they are perfect, #2 you have to try to make them feel like crap just to make yourself feel better, #3 you have to be an ass.  Accept that you just might be wrong for once admit it or whatever and move on. 

Now this one goes for a lot of people around my generation....just because you grew up a certain way, doesn't necessarily mean you have to act that way.  Not saying you can't take some things from your past, but common step by step...really?  Then we would still have slavery and segregated schools people.  Show compassion, hug, communicate, don't cook, drive, get a dishwasher, have sex other then to make babies, women play cards and men cook, go fight that fire, yadda yadda.

"You get more Flys with Honey then Vinegar " people ...so (at least for me) rude, bossy, commanding, you know all things along those lines.  The only thing your going to do is make whatever the problem is worse.  A lot worse.  Because that just then well I just have to do things my way ...x alot.

Next is something I know we all have to some extent, but it just seems some people are a lot worse then others....double standards.  Why..what do they accomplish?  .......so just stop

All we need is love....sex....hugs...kisses....nibbling....pawing....hair pulling....whatever...just stop the crap! *SMILE*

Field trip and some wants....

So I was talking to a friend today about getting away, nothing major but just some friends having fun.  I so need that, I need to get away from the drama that is me sometimes.  I want to let my hair down, and have fun... not worry about what I say or who may be judging what I say because they love me for ME.  I want to go to a club, not to get drunk and show my ass, but to have fun.  I want to go to a play, a battle of the bands,  shopping, dinner theater, take Diem rollerskating, and I want to snuggle not for long just a little bit. Oh well I guess we all want.....

My new study materals....

So that I can become a more "seen" wife....  you can actually read the entire thing yourself  HERE! 
It's kinda entertaining!

 

Just gotta giggle...

So I just needed to giggle....and some of these you may not find funny, but I do.  All the better if you do to!

 

 

And we ALL know somebody that would try to drink from the urinal and that needs to eat some soup!!!! LMAO

G-L-O-C-K and a toddler....

 So I Diem is starting to spell out almost everything that she see's.  This morning she see's my gun case on the shelf, so she spells out G-L-O-C-K!  So I say ..yes honey that says "Glock" she then proceeds to say g.l.o.c.k ..glock for at LEAST an hour.  I must admit though I was proud...LOL .  I want to be that "bad" mom that gets her, her first "gun"(b.b gun) when she is like 5 and take her out shooting.  Then move her up to a rifle not long after, get her a cute pink one.  Let her go out hunting with her Uncle and to the range with her father or whoever she wants to go with.  I don't want her being scared, I want her to know gun safety.  They will be locked up at home...duh.  But she can spell Glock at 2 she can shoot one at 10...haha! 

Oh and people don't assume, I love it when people assume that when you say something negative its about them.  Just because the most of things are does not mean EVERYTHING is.  In your own words "the world does not revolve around _____" .  Not trying to be negative, just saying stop the double standards.....

Pray for somebody....LOL

 The viedo here!!

 Their facebook page is here!

This song just makes you laugh!!  Enjoy!

"Pray for You" by Jaron and The Long Road to Love - LYRICS...


Haven’t been in church since
I don’t remember when
Things were going great
Til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher
As he told me what to do
Said you can’t go hating othes
who done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry
But we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job
And you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out
Running down a hill
I pray and flower pot falls
From a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray your flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are
Honey, I pray for you

Really glad I found my way to church
Cause I’m already feeling better and I thank God for the words
So I’m gonna take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messing up
And I’ll keep praying for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110
I pray you pass out with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos

Wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car
Wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

Care....

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HAPPY????  YA'LL WIN!!  Now everybody should be happy......but me of course.   But hey...who cares, majority rules right?
To those that offered to send Josh things...you can or can't now...that's up to you.  But thank you for being kind enough to do so.
I do have a question, yall know that book from that NCIS episode, what was it?  The Good wives manual or something like that?  You know the one that the Priest made the women that kept locked in the dudgeon type environments study? How do I get my hands on a copy of that?  Since apparently I need it, and that's the decade were all living in.  I'm not a child....don't treat me like one

Want...

Just go...2010 I don't like you so far so can you just go away please?  People were nicer to me in 2009, people tried in 2009.  People wanted (or at least pretended) the right thing in 2009.  Tonight I spent 45min making dinner for nothing.  My child gets fussed at for nothing.  What ever happened to pick your battles?  I mean really what harm is a 2y/o going to do to a sleeping bag?  I think some people just like to be mean at least once a week, like they can't function if they arn't.  I turned down something I wanted for them, they don't know it....doubt they will care.  I just want to be held,  I want a hug, I want to snuggle.  Will I ever know what feeling again?

Still up...

So my Christmas decorations are still up...not that I had a lot to begin with, but alas they are still up.  Not because I'm to lazy to take them down, but because I know as soon as they come down the bit of bliss that came with the Holidays will be gone.  Then the reality of 2010 will begin to set in.  So many things some good some..eh.  Dh deploys at some point..obviously not good.  I get to move out of this house that was great for all of about the first six months we lived here.  The neighborhood is wonderful, but this house is just not functional.  But well I get to move alone, with a 2y/o.  So you can see the good and bad in that of course.  Don't get me wrong I'm thankful for the roof over my head and not  living in the hood like we did for a second there.  But ya'll know what I mean.  Anyways, it looks like 2010 will be the year of mixed emotions for me....LOL.  I just hope I can smile more this year then I did last year....that is my goal.  I just might have to enlist the help of a few of ya'll!