I'm alive....

Not that anybody has checked my blog in all this time...lol.  But lets see since my last post quite a few things have happened.  I have been in the E.R twice, become a "single" parent, started packing, lost about 15lbs, discovered some people are really all talk, and then some.  I didn't want to blog since the deployment until I could come back a happy perky blah blah me, but well I still wouldn't be back.  I'm still sick and they still have no clue what is wrong.  I'm weak every day and dizzy, it's hard to keep up with Diem and be the Mom that I know I should be.  I feel like I am failing her and everything that I should be doing.  I don't like asking for help, so I try not to.  People ask how I am I try to just say "fine", one because do they really care how I am?  Prob not....and two if I were to tell them would they really listen?...prob not.  They would just assume that I'm sick because I miss Josh or some b.s, because God forbid a military wife be sick because she is really sick right?  I don't like being sick.  I like being the strong one, the one that everybody else can depend on.  Except for nobody ever needs me anymore.  Nobody calls me crying, asking for advice, or anything else, it's always me, and I don't like it. 
So here is my question/thought for the day..why do people befriend you on facebook to not say anything to you?  I mean like request that you become their friend then never comment on your status pics or anything for like weeks, months?  Whats the point?  I have had like three people do this in the last month!  Just wondering.  One of those pet peeve things I reckon you know? lol.

It's been awhile.....soooo GIVEAWAY TIME!!!

Missie over at Babythigs.dk has the most awesome store, and has been kind enough to send me a couple of things for giveaway/review.  SO...if you have a little one or will soon and would like win a Hold Me Hand Woven Baby Sling and  write me a small review once you use it, (no pic necessary, but would be awesome).  I'm asking that you do a couple of things (well just one, but a couple if you want more then one entry...lol).  Leave a comment below letting me know either how old your l.o is or how long before you will be using it.  If you are a PL please leave your PR name, if not then please leave me a way to contact you if I don't obviously know who you are.
For additional entries:
Visit Babythings.dk Facebook page and become a fan.  Once you have done so come back and let me know.
Entry #3-Become a follower of Babythings.dk's blog.  As above, once you have done this come back and let me know.
If you already are a follower/fan just leave additional comments letting me know! Thanks!
OH!  And the color of the sling is Natural!  I will ask that if the winner is from outside of the U.S they help cover shipping charges please, but everybody is welcome to enter!   The winner will be chosen via random.org!  Thanks!

Last night.......and my mini wish list

Was fun to say the least?  It all started the night before with stomach pains that just wouldn't quit, but I blew them off...what the heck I  don't have time for this I'm thinking.  Josh is leaving, suck it up.  So I take some of my migraine pills thinking they will find the pain..haha.  And try to sleep.  Yesterday I wake up not feeling well, but eh whatever...we get our pics done by wondermus Cindi over at City Park and come home.  But about 15min after dinner the pains are back BIG TIME.  So I tell Josh I can't take it I'm going over to the Hosp.  I have to admit I was impressed I was taken back in about 30min or so.  After a TON of test and what not, we discover I have a bleeding ulcer, my gallbladder prob has to go, and my hernia has prob poked its way through it's repair at some point.  Wonderful!  So I'm given meds because I can't keep much down or stand up straight at this point, and told to rest!! REST???!!!???  My husband is leaving any day, and I have to pack and move with a 2 year old!! LMAO but ok yeah I'll rest and take care of those problems right away to!  Haha NOT!  So lets just pray the medicine gods shine down on me for several months and work their magic, so that I will have some constant help w/ speed demon if/when they have to do anything.  And who knows maybe the problems will magically fix themselves!
Another thing I did while I was at the e.r was think a bit and I have decided that I REALLY REALLY want Diem to have a Waldorf inspired doll...but oh ny gosh they cost so much!!  However you pay for good quality right?  And for me I have discovered I NEED a black/bub be smart.  So anyways thats that.  Have a good one!

Pardon the dust....

But hopefully everybody will love the new blog and appreciate all of the hard work that Kim is putting into it!  I know I do!!  So please keep reading and checking back, the best is yet to come!  I realize my post have slowed down for a bit, but things have been pretty busy around here (not that anybody has really noticed).  Anyways they will pick back up here soon.  For the couple of ya'll that check in here and there thank you!!  I plan on trying to get a few more product reviews and what not also in the up coming months so stay tuned!

Runnin'

So if ya'll don't hear from me for a few days then you know something happened to me...lol.  I have decided to become serious about this whole running thing.  What I am thinking I don't know....just like some people shouldn't wear certain things, some people shouldn't run....yet I am going to try to.  I need to be pretty for a magnitude of reasons, so therefor off I go.  Please pray that I don't cause an earthquake or need 911 called...lol. 

The mall

All I have to say is if Josh was not deploying I would have turned around when we pulled in the parking lot!!  That mall was nuts, I mean really its the day before a Hallmark holiday people not Christmas!  Yet another reason I don't like Lynnhaven mall and stick to Cheaspeake Square!  But alas there is no Build a Bear over here.  So we go in the mall and go to the Disney store first because they are having a pretty good sale on plush toys.  Diem picks a Goofy and a Donald Duck, not what I thought she would pick but ok.  THEN there was the line...OMG the line was half way around the store, well needless to say Diem had a mini melt down while waiting in that! Lol  Then next door to Build a Bear...WTH?!?!?!!  The line was THREE stores down!!  I swear if Josh was not leaving we would have left and  come back a different day, but well we couldn't so we wait and wait some more.  I did discover while I was in line that Tricia and some of her family were in the mall, and btw DANNY I'm holding ya'll to what you said!!! LMAO  Anyways, we FINALLY get Diems Frog done.  Yes she picked it, I held up a dog and the frog and she snatched the frog from my hand, Josh recorded a message to her that is in it's foot.  He has on a soccer outfit, we were going to put in a hockey one but it was UGLY! lol  Anyways that was our boring yet long day!

Help??

So in less time then I would like I am going to be a single parent.  I just really think I am going to find out who my FRIENDS are and who my friends are in the first few weeks that Josh is gone.  There is A LOT that has to be done in a VERY short period of time, and I am really going to need the help of a few of my friends.  But you know how it goes, everybody always talks at practice but when game day rolls around nobody is ready to get in the game.  Yeah that was bad, but  ya'll know what I'm trying to say right? Lol  I HATE depending on people because I always get let down, just a fact.   I have to figure out a way to entertain Diem while the Verizon man is at the other house for 5hrs during her nap time, with nothing to do, paint, pack, paint more, oh and did I mention I'm not supposed to lift anything to heavy?  Oh and that my dad has a broken ankle?  I have NO CLUE how I'm going to do it  but oh well I will, and I prob won't ask for help.  Why?  because I don't want somebody to tell me they will help me just to let me down....I can't take much more of that right now.  And this is in no way ment to be an insult to my friends.  I realize they have lives yadda yadda I however am just speaking how I feel in my heart.  It is 0315 and that's what I do..lol  Love to you all

Bucket

Sometimes I wish there was a bucket next to me at all times.  And I could stick my head in the bucket and automatically be in my "happy place", except for sadly I have no idea where that is.  I can't say it's with my husband because he just rolls his eyes when he has to talk to me for more then 10 consecutive minutes and acts like its the worse thing on the planet. He acts like he can't wait until he is out of here!  Like they can't get him a plane ticket fast enough half of the time so yeah no happy place there..  I would say it's with Diem but lets face it while she makes me extremely happy overall, what do you really think a toddler can do?  Then we have my friends...umm yeah A.) They are either married to men that love them dearly and I just want to cry because I would kill for my husband to show me the TLC theirs do.  Of course if you were to ask him, he is Romeo and he does...lol.  or B) They are strong women that have it all together and well ....I'm me, and I wouldn't wish being me on my worst enemy. 
All I want is to FEEL loved, wanted, special, needed, by somebody that isn't still in diapers, but whatever these things will never happen.  I really think its because the attention is being given someplace else so my time is just what is left over.  Maybe they want me to take mine elsewhere to?  That way he won't have to care at all, not even a little bit?  I don't have to be/want to be wined and dined....I just want to be cared about....and SHOWED it.   I'm so beyond torn because I don't want my husband to go but at the same time I'm almost like ..why not, will he even really notice? 
Then we have the PR, how can so many women lead these picture perfect lives?  I just don't get it I guess.
I'm just so sick of being wrong, I would love for somebody..ie Josh mostly, to say: " You know what honey you have a point, and I do need to do better, I'm sorry and I will try".  And really MEAN it for once.
Oh well I guess over the next however long I will just lead my hobbit type existence...or as close to it as possible.  So bring on the bucket....

Lets go Saints!!!

Nuff Said!!!  Be back later!  Oh and of course can't wait to see the commercials! LOL
WHO DAT!!!!!!  Way to make history baby!!  

Guns and Hoses

So we took Diem to the hockey game tonight.  Didn't think we were going to go at first thanks to Josh's friend waiting until the last minute to tell him he didn't want to go to the second game with him.  Why do people do that?  Wait until the last poss second to give an answer?  So that put Josh in a pissy mood and he didn't want to go at all, and then of course we got into a fight because thanks to his friend our day (which we were FINALLY having a good one of) was just going down the drain.  So anyways I FINALLY got him to agree to go, two cars, pouting, and half assed getting along later, we were at the game.
 Anyways once we got there things got better.  Hoses one of course!!!!  Yay!!  Even though I love my guns to!! LOL  When we got there Diem expressed how much she LOVED the ice and how pretty it was...lol.  Hopefully we can take her ice skating sometime soon, since she won't be able to start her lessons for a couple of more months.  But I'm really excited to get her out on the ice and see how she does.  She really enjoys roller skating so I reckon we shall see.

The new look

I would like to thank Kim from the PR for working on my blog for me!!!  I realize there are still some tweaks but I would like to know what everybody thinks so far!  I am trying to think of a giveaway to celebrate, any ideas?

Little Dudes and Diva's Contest!!

LD&D is doing another AMAZING giveaway on their forum!!  If you click HERE you can be entered to win an awesome Fleurville pink bingo bag!!!   And please tell Maya that I sent you also!  Thanks!

Smile

Smile....you know I have not had very much to smile about lately.  My plans for the weekend are most likely ruined because of a massive snow storm.  My husband is acting like he could take me or leave me..which hurts more now because he is leaving in under a month.  I find a new friend down here to talk to and what not, to find out she is moving this summer.  Progress has pretty much come to a halt with other stuff that was being worked on.  I don't know what to do...I just want somebody to show me some affection, be nice to me, smile when I'm around.  Don't act like I am the worse thing that has happened since the first person got AIDS in America.  I know I am not perfect....far from it, but really do I need to be reminded of it all the time?  Whatever... all I want is to feel cared about...........by somebody.  Hell sometimes I don't really think dh really cares who does it, or if anybody else does it, as long as it gets him off of he hook for 98% of it.  Now I could be wrong, but it sure doesn't seem like it.  So if anybody is bored and wants to make me smile...it would be very welcome.  I would love for the happy me to reappear.  Thanks

Wish I was a Donut....LMAO

Ok so I found this poem....its SO wrong, but OMGosh is it funny!!!

I Wish I Was A Donut I wish I was a donut And get eaten every day To stick on someone's fingers In a most delightful way I wish I was a donut Sugar coated just for fun Full and round for easy grip And a hole to put your tongue I wish I was a donut Long and filled with custard cream Delicious on the taste buds A succulent silken dream Copyright; Therese

Sigh....

I need to get away!  Away from HR, away from VA....just AWAY!!  I want to get in the car, on a plane, train, no bus..ick, a cruise ship, something and just be able to relax and have some fun!  No stress, drama, none of that bs.   Yeah I know its not going to happen....ever, but a girl can dream right?  I don't even have to have anything super fancy, just fun and relaxing.  Oh well something else to add to the wish list I reckon....

People......

I don't like people!  Plain and simple, I don't know how much more plain English I can put it I don't like people right now.  If one more friggin person that has NO clue even thinks of saying how quickly this deployment will go I will scream!!!  I don't give a rats ass how much Josh and I do or don't get along, that is NOT the point.  The point is he is leaving behind his family for an extended period of time.  Very little communication (which lets admit he is not that great at in the first place), and a toddler that is on his shirt tales.  So YOU tell me how quickly it would go by for you??!!!?  And DO NOT tell me I married him!!  No shit I married him, does that mean I have to like the fact that he is leaving?   Does it mean I should put my daughters cheer outfit on her and get her pom pom's?  It does not mean I am not proud, don't stand behind or any of that....no it means I am a normal person that DOESN'T want to hear crap from somebody that really has zero clue what to say, so they say something that makes my blood pressure so high that I almost have a stroke!  Then to make matters even worse just because of who you are other people automatically feel obligated to go along with you!! ARGH!!!!!  Ok devils advocate ya'll may mean well but really ...just stop...please.  If you don't know what to say.  Just say something like "Stay safe", "Hurry home", "If you need anything let us know", etc you get the picture right?  NEVER say things about how short the time is going to be, or how quick it will pass, or "oh its just that long", something like that.  That is just a sure fire way to piss me off.  And again because I KNOW some smart ass will read this and go "well as much as ya'll fight the break will do you good"  and you know what it just might.  But I have a bigger picture to look at, and that involves more then just me.   So in this instance if you have never been there done that, or if you have and your one of those "oh I use this time to make blankets for people w/o blankets and so it flys by".  Can just bite me ok? :o) Ok well I have gotten it off of my chest so thanks for now....ta ta

Games

I'm not a huge fan of games, I think the reason is because the rules always seem to change for the more popular players.  For example I'm playing this "game" right now, I asked about a certain rule this morning and I was given an answer.  Another player asked about the SAME rule later this evening, and was given a different answer.  Basically what I was told was wrong for me to do is ok for her?  I call b.s, and I am about over it to be honest.  There are over 50 players in this game, they won't miss me, need me, or anything else.  Don't get me wrong I love some of the other people playing the game, I really honestly do.  But don't give me the oh its ok for her but not you crap.  Yes previsions are made...but not different friggin rules!!  Anyways whatever seems my life anymore is about me doing what makes everybody else happy.  I don't think my happiness matters to anybody.  Everybody keeps telling me for me to do what makes me happy, yet when I try all that ends up happening is more stuff that causes me to be unhappy and sad.  So PLEASE tell me how to be happy....I'm begging "you".

What am I thinking....

So I have this crazy idea that in a years time I will be able to run a 5k! I know funny stuff right? But if I can do it then I'm going to do it at WDW. And Diem is going to run a 400m dash and maybe a mile. So when taxes come back I am going to get a Wii fit and do this! I could really use all the encouragement that I can get so...

On another note the Facebook fan page for Bowman Wanser has been launched, so you should come by and take a look! More pics will be added very soon! There is also a shoot lined up for this area with a slot or two open if anybody is interested please contact me. The facebook fan page is here.

Anyways that's about it in the exciting world of me ...still looking for a house, well found two that we love.  I hate waiting on a Realtor.  They are the worst!!   How difficult is it to call a person back?  Anyways, I guess that's all...lol. 

Not that it matters...

But I miss being content and feeling at home. I don't feel at home even in my own house. I hope that when we move that will change. I want to start off organized, not just an organized mess. I want it to feel like a home, not just a place that I live. So IKEA here I come!! I want one of those stainless steel trash cans to, you know the ones you don't have to touch, and a real t.v!! A spot for the shoes, not just friggin kicked wth ever they happen to land!

Its cold so I'm giving something away...

How about some Starbucks Hot Cocoa??  I have a thing of three tins each tin has a diff flavor.  What I want to know is what makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside?  It can be anything!   And yes I mean that!! LOL   Have fun!!
OH and if your not a PL...PLEASE don't forget to do by favor about two post down!!!  Thanks!

So...

So have you ever just had those day(s) that no matter if the person/people mean to or not, a certain few people just irritate the living crap out of you?  They don't really do anything wrong....I mean they might but it's nothing really "wrong" or major, but omg you just want to smack the breath out of them! LOL  And I'm pretty sure there are at least two people that feel the same way about me right now.  Do I care....sure I do.   I do anything about it, no so I'm not going to even bother trying.   Like for example I'm doing this befit thing in the PR, I usually love everybody doing it, now....eh.  And there are a few reasons why....first off I'm afraid to post anything or the grammar police might come after me...wtf?  Pardon me can you please past the mustard?  Why do I  NEED to post every single day what I do as long as its up by the end of the week?  So that people have more time to be critical of me?  Oh look so THAT'S why she is so fat!  I realize the people who did this put A LOT of hard work and effort into this,  and its prob just me.  But I SO wanted this to be fun this time...not make me want to cry..shrug. 
Then I have my friend who is not speaking to me because of a misunderstanding...that hurts A LOT, we never talked a lot like we should have but I love her and I want us to speak.  Life is to short, so if your reading this....you know who you are please can we love each other again? 
Then there is the never ending trying to please everybody crap.  Oh wait can I say crap? Yep because its MY blog!!   I can't believe people have the nerve to get on other peoples pages and whine about what they say! "OMG do you know you mother can see this"....Umm yeah as a matter of fact I do I accepted her friend req moron.  But ty for reminding me just in case I forgot.  Yeah do I maybe say some things I shouldn't ...sure...but am I an adult that needs to laugh sometimes because my life is not as perfect as yours obviously is?  Yes so I'm sorry!  But please feel free so send your semi charmed life my way any day ok Mary Poppins?  And on that note....don't say you can fully judge somebody looking through only half of a window, either look through all of it or don't look at all, that's kinda like watching a moving through your fingers. 
WOW maybe it's been to long since I have blogged or the new bc is just making me even more honest......SCARY! LMAO.....Love ya'll

Do me a favor Please?

So my FAVORITE company JJB is having a contest for who can get the most referals between now and Feb15th.  We can BOTH win a bag if you just become a fan on facebook, and/or follow them on twitter.  Basically read below and take like two min and fill the form out PLEASE.  Even if you don't have a baby/kid, it can be a gift!  It would mean a lot to me.  Thanks!

***Just following on FB would help A LOT Even if your a GUY...lol THANK YOU!!!***
P.S-My "name" is Fyrgrl if you do this...since is guess it's hard to find..LOL THANKS again!

Ju-Ju-Be, a company that makes awesome bags and other fun accessories, is having a referral contest! This is a chance for me AND you to earn some cool Ju-Ju-Be prizes, so I’m inviting you to join in the fun!

To enter the contest (and count as my referral), I’m asking my friends to do one of the following:

- Join the Ju-Ju-Be’s Pink Room message boards! http://www.ju-ju-be.com/PinkRoom/index.php
- Become their Facebook fan! http://www.facebook.com/jujubeintl
- Follow them on Twitter! twitter.com/jujube_inc
- Sign up for their email newsletter! http://tinyurl.com/ygo27qa

What could be better than access to up-to-date Ju-Ju-Be news, promotions and product launches, and more?!?

But wait! To actually count as my referral after you’ve done one or more of those, YOU HAVE TO GO TO THIS SITE –http://tinyurl.com/iheartjjb — which is the official entry into the contest. My Pink Room name is fyrgrl. You’ll need that for the entry form. That site also gives you a chance to win a bag for yourself as they’re choosing a winner from the new fans, too!

Take a look around Ju-Ju-Be’s site http://www.ju-ju-be.com/, and you’ll see just how great their products are. I’m also happy to tell you all about my favorite print and bag styles and…anything else you wanna know!

More contest details on Ju-Ju-Be’s blog! http://ju-ju-be.com/ju-ju-blog

Something to do....

Hi...so I have decided I need some excitment.  I want to gt in the car and just drive, see where I end up...but I'm a bit chicken...not because of me but to do it alone with Diem.  Maybe I can convince a friend or two to go on this adventure with me.  I don't want to be gone for lone just a day or so.  Just enough to get a break from reality you  know?  Have fun let my hair down say..ahhhh.  No he said she said b.s nothing. 
I got new glasses today, I didn't realize how bad my old ones were.  My contacts should be here soon.  I know that nobody really cares, but well whatever...lol. 
I miss work...I know nobody really misses me, but I miss it. 

Don't change

A word to the wise........if you do something that somebody else doesn't like and they ask you to change it.  Only change it if YOU really want to.  Because most likely if you do or not it really won't make a difference anyway.  They will still treat you the same, still have the same standards, and so in the long run it really won't make a difference.  People will keep acting how they want, you will continue to hurt, and the same person will care............nobody.

Waiting...

I found this poem online tonight, and it just fits.  Not verbatim of course, but pretty damn close. 

Waiting
  by Dawn D.

  Wanting,
  lusting,
  to be held,
  to be loved,
  to feel warmth,
  to feel your beating heart.
  Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,
  heartless winds.
  Falling into invisible arms;
  into an abyss of love.
  Wishing,
  hoping,
  that my desires will be filled; 
  my desires of loving warmth.
  Wanting to be held,
  comforted,
  loved.
  Dreaming of passionate embraces,
  of tender kisses,
  loving words,
  romantic nights.
  Waiting for undying love.

Thanks Susan....

I got this off of FACE BOOK from one of my best friends Susan.  I think it's great!

Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib, not from his feet to be walked on, not from his head to be superior, but from his side to be equal! Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved... 

People should read it and pay attention....all over this great country. 

Why...

Why speak....does anybody really hear you?  And if they do are they listening?

Why breath..  If you stop is anybody going to notice?  And if they do are they are they going to help you start breathing again?

Why cry... do the tears really accomplish anything?  I just get a headache, yet I can't help but cry sometimes.

Why love....are you ever really loved back?  Actions speak louder then words.  Most times all that gets heard anymore is a bunch of loud words.

Why make a promise......do you really want to do it?   Or are you just trying to shut up the person that asked the question?  Are you really listening when you answer in the first place?

Why no affection....is there no love?  Do you just not care....does anybody care.  Prob not.   I'm prob wrong ........again.

Why do you not realize that if you don't show me you love me....one day somebody else might show me attention.  But then I will be the wrong one.  But deep down will that make you happy? 

Why does everybody put everything on MY shoulders?  I have to say hi...I have to be the bigger person....I have to say sorry....I have to shut up....I have to do whatever...ME!!!  Why?!  Whats wrong with everybody else?  Why are "you" so much better then I am?  Just wondering....

A few observations....

People really need to thank each other more for the small things, like holding the door open at the store, letting you over in traffic, bringing you a drink just because you noticed theirs was empty.

Say hi...just because.  It won't hurt it wont take long.  Who cares if you live with the person, if you see them once a week, once a year, or if you just wish you could see them.

Don't get all pissy when somebody calls you out on something you know you are/were wrong on, and start pointing out every little fault in them.  Just because they called you out, and made you have to see that your not 10ft tall and bullet proof doesn't mean that...#1 they are perfect, #2 you have to try to make them feel like crap just to make yourself feel better, #3 you have to be an ass.  Accept that you just might be wrong for once admit it or whatever and move on. 

Now this one goes for a lot of people around my generation....just because you grew up a certain way, doesn't necessarily mean you have to act that way.  Not saying you can't take some things from your past, but common step by step...really?  Then we would still have slavery and segregated schools people.  Show compassion, hug, communicate, don't cook, drive, get a dishwasher, have sex other then to make babies, women play cards and men cook, go fight that fire, yadda yadda.

"You get more Flys with Honey then Vinegar " people ...so (at least for me) rude, bossy, commanding, you know all things along those lines.  The only thing your going to do is make whatever the problem is worse.  A lot worse.  Because that just then well I just have to do things my way ...x alot.

Next is something I know we all have to some extent, but it just seems some people are a lot worse then others....double standards.  Why..what do they accomplish?  .......so just stop

All we need is love....sex....hugs...kisses....nibbling....pawing....hair pulling....whatever...just stop the crap! *SMILE*

Field trip and some wants....

So I was talking to a friend today about getting away, nothing major but just some friends having fun.  I so need that, I need to get away from the drama that is me sometimes.  I want to let my hair down, and have fun... not worry about what I say or who may be judging what I say because they love me for ME.  I want to go to a club, not to get drunk and show my ass, but to have fun.  I want to go to a play, a battle of the bands,  shopping, dinner theater, take Diem rollerskating, and I want to snuggle not for long just a little bit. Oh well I guess we all want.....

My new study materals....

So that I can become a more "seen" wife....  you can actually read the entire thing yourself  HERE! 
It's kinda entertaining!

 

Just gotta giggle...

So I just needed to giggle....and some of these you may not find funny, but I do.  All the better if you do to!

 

 

And we ALL know somebody that would try to drink from the urinal and that needs to eat some soup!!!! LMAO

G-L-O-C-K and a toddler....

 So I Diem is starting to spell out almost everything that she see's.  This morning she see's my gun case on the shelf, so she spells out G-L-O-C-K!  So I say ..yes honey that says "Glock" she then proceeds to say g.l.o.c.k ..glock for at LEAST an hour.  I must admit though I was proud...LOL .  I want to be that "bad" mom that gets her, her first "gun"(b.b gun) when she is like 5 and take her out shooting.  Then move her up to a rifle not long after, get her a cute pink one.  Let her go out hunting with her Uncle and to the range with her father or whoever she wants to go with.  I don't want her being scared, I want her to know gun safety.  They will be locked up at home...duh.  But she can spell Glock at 2 she can shoot one at 10...haha! 

Oh and people don't assume, I love it when people assume that when you say something negative its about them.  Just because the most of things are does not mean EVERYTHING is.  In your own words "the world does not revolve around _____" .  Not trying to be negative, just saying stop the double standards.....

Pray for somebody....LOL

 The viedo here!!

 Their facebook page is here!

This song just makes you laugh!!  Enjoy!

"Pray for You" by Jaron and The Long Road to Love - LYRICS...


Haven’t been in church since
I don’t remember when
Things were going great
Til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher
As he told me what to do
Said you can’t go hating othes
who done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry
But we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job
And you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out
Running down a hill
I pray and flower pot falls
From a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray your flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are
Honey, I pray for you

Really glad I found my way to church
Cause I’m already feeling better and I thank God for the words
So I’m gonna take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messing up
And I’ll keep praying for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110
I pray you pass out with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos

Wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car
Wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

Care....

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HAPPY????  YA'LL WIN!!  Now everybody should be happy......but me of course.   But hey...who cares, majority rules right?
To those that offered to send Josh things...you can or can't now...that's up to you.  But thank you for being kind enough to do so.
I do have a question, yall know that book from that NCIS episode, what was it?  The Good wives manual or something like that?  You know the one that the Priest made the women that kept locked in the dudgeon type environments study? How do I get my hands on a copy of that?  Since apparently I need it, and that's the decade were all living in.  I'm not a child....don't treat me like one

Want...

Just go...2010 I don't like you so far so can you just go away please?  People were nicer to me in 2009, people tried in 2009.  People wanted (or at least pretended) the right thing in 2009.  Tonight I spent 45min making dinner for nothing.  My child gets fussed at for nothing.  What ever happened to pick your battles?  I mean really what harm is a 2y/o going to do to a sleeping bag?  I think some people just like to be mean at least once a week, like they can't function if they arn't.  I turned down something I wanted for them, they don't know it....doubt they will care.  I just want to be held,  I want a hug, I want to snuggle.  Will I ever know what feeling again?

Still up...

So my Christmas decorations are still up...not that I had a lot to begin with, but alas they are still up.  Not because I'm to lazy to take them down, but because I know as soon as they come down the bit of bliss that came with the Holidays will be gone.  Then the reality of 2010 will begin to set in.  So many things some good some..eh.  Dh deploys at some point..obviously not good.  I get to move out of this house that was great for all of about the first six months we lived here.  The neighborhood is wonderful, but this house is just not functional.  But well I get to move alone, with a 2y/o.  So you can see the good and bad in that of course.  Don't get me wrong I'm thankful for the roof over my head and not  living in the hood like we did for a second there.  But ya'll know what I mean.  Anyways, it looks like 2010 will be the year of mixed emotions for me....LOL.  I just hope I can smile more this year then I did last year....that is my goal.  I just might have to enlist the help of a few of ya'll!