Happy New Year

Happy New Year to all of my friends, family and "family".  This year has been full of challenges, trials, and just ups and downs in general.  Heck just yesterday two of my friends/coworkers could have been very easily taken away from us, because of a senseless act of violence.  I would like to say thank you to all of the men and women that protect us every day.  The dispatchers, law enforcement, fire/ems, military, and hospital staff (somebody has to take care of everybody right?....LOL). 
Much love to everybody!  Can't wait to see what 2010 brings!

New Years Giveaway!!

So I want to know your favorite movie quotes and why!!  The winner will be chosen via random.org in about two weeks and then they will get an awesome bow holder made by Frances!  You can pick your colors, but here are pics of one she has done already!  I know its hard to pick your favorite movie quote, but for example today I couldn't think of a single one!!!  So I had to use my call a friend...LOL and they gave me "It appears my hypocrisy knows no bounds" from Tombstone.  Then as I got to thinking about it...it REALLY applies to somebody in my life! HAHAHA  then as I'm typing my other favorite quote is "Call the PO PO HO" ~Madea of course!  Now for the details ...this contest is going to run about two weeks and I will add pics of Diems when it gets here!  Thanks Moms and Dads and Thanks Frances for making one!  P.S-If its not obvious who you are please include it or pm me on f.b, or something letting me know!  Thanks!

I REALLY wonder about people sometimes...

Like really....I would LOVE to be inside of people's heads sometimes!!  For example my friends house was broken into over Christmas by a "friend" of the family!!!  I mean really??!!?  Why would you take toys from children?  I don't care if you THINK they can afford more or not does not make it yours now does it? NO!
Then there is that one "special" person that you just can't make yourself like no matter how hard you try and then as soon as I get in my head I'm going to give this person a chance, they go and do something yet again to remind me why I feel how I do about them (and yeah if your reading I know you feel the same about me so....).  You know it's sad that we can't all just get the bleep along.  Oh well at least some of us are family.
My neighbors have been partying for the last two  nights until almost 5 in the morning.  Now I will admit a slight bit of me is jealous, that I am not doing things like that anymore...LOL.  But even back in the day when we were....we would never be loud and rude!  Again I wonder about people sometimes.
Ok now I'm adding more....why does 75% of what I say get taken the wrong way???!!!!???  Esp to a certain group of people?  I already hardly talk to them as it is (and I DON'T LIKE THAT)......maybe I just need to stop talking to them at all unless necessary?  And that makes me sad.....VERY.  I'm so SICK of being sad!!  I'm also sad to know that my child and my niece are basically out of sight...out of mind.  Now this MAY not be true and I pray it's not because I THOUGHT the relationship between the person that I THINK feels this way and I was getting better.  But then again....I have been wrong about a lot of things when it comes to people in my "family" giving to shits about me and my feelings. 
Why can't people just be considerate of others, quit having double standards, and treat others as they wish to be treated?  Yeah we all have our days...but you all know what I mean.

Christmas....

Christmas with a two year old was interesting.  She had a blast opening her gifts and she had/has ocd when it comes to wrapping paper.  ALL off the paper had to be off of the gift before she would look at it or move on...LOL.  My parents, brother, his girlfriend, and her father came over.  So over all two different dinners were made, and Josh made two pies.  Diem got enough toys to hold her over, but her favorite by far are her trampoline and her tool box.  Sorry so short, but I have a lot on my mind ....not much to say...

It's Christmas Eve

This is the first time in a few years I have not worked or at least vol to work.  There is a lot of me that misses the aspects of working during a holiday like Christmas(eve).  At the same time there are plenty of things I don't miss about it.  I don't miss the sad things that seem to increase during the holiday season, the domestics, shopliftings, suicides, abuse, things like that.  They always go up during the holiday season, I wonder if it's because people just need to open up and talk or what but it's sad.  I have been there in my personal life and through work and it takes a strong person to help those in "need".
So I would personaly like to say thank you to those working during the Holidays...Dispatchers, Fire/Rescue, Law Enforcement, Hospital Staff, and Military (of course any others I may have missed).  I know we have all pulled the holiday shifts, handled the crappy calls, and missed our families.  And I also know that even tough we say we love our jobs (because face it most of us do :) ).  It's still nice to hear Thank You sometimes.  
Merry Christmas xoxo

Have you ever...

Have you ever wanted to just shake somebody? LOL  No really...like I am a member of this AWESOME "group" of ladies/board right?  But just like any other large gathering of women after a while I start to remember why I prefer most of my friends to be men.  Don't get me wrong I totally adore 98.5% of these women, but it's the little things.  Like the ones that weigh 100lbs soaking wet being worried about what they are going to look like come bathing suit season...I mean really???  Why the hell are you worried about it, your going to have somebody like me to always make you look 100x better, so don't even worry about it sweetie ok? LOL 
Or the ones that always have the perfect husbands and the perfect homes with the perfect kids, well can you PLEASE tell me where to sign up for your perfect life?  I'm happy that your husband send you two dozen roses just because he loves you...no really I am, and he cooks you dinner every night, and he cleans, and he gives the kids baths, and puts them to bed, and etc.  Do I want all that no, and yes I'm being honest....do I want some of that hell yeah I do.  Do I want to feel pretty...Hell yeah, Do I want to feel like somebody adores me hell yeah, do I not want to feel like a beached whale..of course, do I want to feel like somebody wants to talk to me instead of me bothering them, like 99% of the people in my life...it would be a nice change.   Will any of these things happen?  Prob not but whatever at least I have put my feelings out there, I feel a little better for that.  You know people keep saying "you rock" to me....but I don't really understand why?

Playing in the snow and being snowed...

Well we made it home, Diem LOVES the snow.  Took forever to get up here because people are stupid and can't drive..but whatever.  My daughter was happy, so that made me happy.
Got some "news" when I got up here that has irritated me a bit.  I think I am going to be rethinking my friends, family,  etc VERY carefully!!  You would think the fact that I have "family" I can't trust as far as I can throw that doesn't even live near me would be bad enough right??  Nope...now I have to worry about my "friends" to??  That's ok because I'm going to start cutting people off QUICK.  So run back and tell people that ok???

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My child...

Well its offical, I think Diem has a "thing" with holidays...LOL .  Last year she had a broken leg for Christmas and this year she sprains her thumb.  Of course its no big deal, but I really think that the poor child has a thing with the holidays...lol.  So I'm wondering what next year will have in store...haha.  When I told the Dr at CHKD about it she just had to laugh because Diem was to busy txt'ing yes...you read that right to pay attention to her to get examined.  Only my child.
I'm still a bit irked/hurt by a certain "family" member and their lack of acting like it this holiday.  But whatever I don't really care for her and she feels the same so.  That's that. 

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A different kind of not "me" Monday

This Monday is going to not be about "me" at all.  Instead I would like to talk about a "friend" of mine.  The ONLY reason I put the word friend in quotes is because I have never met Vanessa in real life, I know her through the PR.  But from what I know of her she is a wonderful, caring, loving woman that would do anything for anybody.  I am grateful for the opportunity to be able to call her a friend.  Matter of fact she has no clue that I am typing this.  So Vanessa I really hope that you don't mind, and if you do please tell me and I will take it down ok? 
The reason I am writting about Vanessa on not me Monday is because some things are just NOT fair for her and her family right now.  That being said I realize they are firm believers in God and that they know he has a plan for them.  But still I would like for their story to go out to a few more ears, just in case you know somebody that might be able to help them ok? 
They would love nothing more then to adopt a baby...yes they have been blessed with two children, but they would still love to give a child that needs a loving home one also.  I took this "It's not fair" blurb from Vanessa's blog.  Why because it's NOT her Monday!!! 
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It's Not Fair

Today I'm feeling melancholy concerning our adoption. I am so very happy when I hear that others have been able to adopt, yet it is my human nature to automatically feel a little down for myself.

It's not fair:

*that money talks
*that we don't have the funds to automatically say yes to any situation
*that we aren't as "marketable" because we already have a little babe at homw.
*that we have it so strongly on our hearts to adopt, yet nothing has happened
*that we have been waiting a year and a half now

In the back on my mind, I know that God has the perfect plan and the perfect child waiting just for us. But today, I just want to scream, cry and shout that it is not fair!   ''

I have been thinking about your blog, Vanessa for the last few days.  Everybody there is a link back to her blog over to the left.  Please if you believe in prayer to so, if not keep them in your thoughts.  Thanks!

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Decisions

So I decided that I (along with a friend or two) am going to get some boudoir pictures done by my friend who's link is to the left.  I will post a link to his face book fan page as soon as its finished.  I'm super excited... nothing to "bad" but nothing to "good" either.  Heck if they were good what would be the point right? LMAO  So if anybody is interested in joining me OR getting them done let me know. 
I have also decided that Christmas is coming very quickly (when it comes to decorating), maybe its because my house is just to little house and to much us!  I really don't know where to start and I am about to say forget it, because almost no matter what it's going to look like blah ya know? Lol
Diem  has decided that she is a Magic Elf (Backyardigan) and well that's just what she is...and she will be one until she decides otherwise. 
Night ya'll!

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Thank you and a Giveaway.....

So the mail man came today and I get a box from Canada, mind you I am NOT expecting a package from anybody in CAN.  Several weeks ago I mentioned in the PR that I would like to get Diem a pair of Kai Lan tennis shoes off of Ebay but they were expensive.  Well a girl Tiffany from in there sent Diem two pair just out of the blue!  It warms my heart to know there are sweet, loving, warm, caring people out there.  She does not know me irl, we only know each other form the PR and she has NO reason to do something this sweet for "us", but she did.  We have family that is not even this nice to us (Diem and I).  I feel truly blessed and grateful to have the FRIENDS that I do.  I'm sure plenty of "my" family is talking crap behind my back (even though it would be nice if they would just say it to my face).  Anyways enough about that...again thank you Tiffany and thank you to all of my friends that have spoiled Diem rotten this Christmas!  Well heck who always do! LOL
Now onto my giveaway!!! WOOHOO  Mrs. Jennie over at Jennies Bow's is going to let one lucky mamma or daddy pick a bow of a choice for her little one!!!   So what I would like for you to do is tell me what you love the most about this time of year!  Thanks mammas and daddys!!

Not Me Monday

I am not extremly sad that I don't have a Christmas party to go to this  year.....still.  Nope not me. 

I do not sometimes day dream about some magical life, then wonder how I ended up....me.  Nope not me.

I don't get BEYOND sick and tired of people telling me to cheer up.  The don't know what's going through my mind or how I feel.  I don't just want to smack those people.  Nope not me.

I don't sometimes wonder if my friends are full of crap when they tell me what they do half of the time, because I really don't think they mean a 1/3 of what they say deep down.  No not me.

It really hurts my feelings to think that though, because I want to believe my friends and that they say.  And I would like to think they meant what they said....Yep me

I'm not jealous of people that can just let stuff roll off of their back without a care in the world.  They don't care if people break their word, screw them over, or hurt their feelings.  They just go "oh well" and move on.  Why can't I be like that?  Because that is ....Not me

I don't wish they had a auto friend ..you know it would be kinda like the wake up call at a hotel.  You program it when you get you phone to txt you everyday with "hello, i hope you have a good day".  No not me

I don't wish I  could go back about 7yrs and change a FEW things and then come back to now...No not me. 

Lemons

Why do people always say "When life hands you lemons make lemonade"?  What if you don't have any dang sugar??  Or you try your best to make lemonade but somebody keeps coming along and either taking one of your lemons or some of your sugar?  What I guess I'm trying to get at is, things are not always as they seem.  When your on the outside looking in, you don't always have the full picture.  Especially if your looking with a biased point of view. 
And whats up with the curve balls?  I know we all get them, but dang!  I just wish that people were able to see how they way they treat you really hurts sometimes, even if they don't mean to treat you that way.  Being mean goes way beyond anything physical.  I don't like being stuck between a rock and a hard place.  ....just food for thought, and that goes for everybody in my life.  Then again sometimes I do because that's the most comfortable place I have to be.  So I guess people need to start making decisions on how they are going to treat me, and if they are going to stop taking me for granted or not.  Yo no se.........

Wanted...

I don't know what my deal is,  I know its not just me because I was talking to a girlfriend of mine and she said she felt the exact same way.  We just want to be ...wanted.  People (guys) don't realize how nice of a feeling it is to get that random txt just to say "hi", or that random email.  Why?  I don't know, is it because they could care less if they get them or not, do they not have feelings, not have hearts, is all the blood in their penis so they can't manage the thought to do something as small/sweet as mentioned above?  All I know is I would just about give my left boob to feel wanted by somebody again.  And the key word here people is FEEL.  I don't give a rat's ass what you tell me, actions speak SO much louder then words.  Everything works both ways YOU can txt, call, email, tweet, me just ask easy as I can you.  And disclaimer when I say "I" and "you"...I'm not necessarily  talking about me and dh I'm talking for all men and women, husbands/wives, bf/gf, friends w/ benni's, friends, whatever you might be.  Just know that people like to feel wanted, it makes them feel like the matter to somebody.  And sometimes you never know when that person is feeling like they matter to absolutely nobody and you might have just made their day.
Now to touch on rudeness for a second.  Just because you have done something nice for me, doesn't mean you can be rude to me for the rest of the evening!!  It's not a friggin get it  out of  your system ticket!........Just sayin

12 days of Christmas giveaway...

So this time of year is when everybody makes cookies to give away to their friends etc.  I have a little "kit" with cookie cutters and a rolling pin (honestly not sure how long it will last...lol).  But this is pretty much for kiddos to have fun with.  If you would like it let me know why you like cooking with your kids OR cooking for others!  So I don't have 12 things to giveaway but it would sound stupid to say X number of things so I'm randomly giving things away this month!  Keep your peepers open!! LOVE YA~
BTW this one ends on SUNDAY OR MONDAY

Waldorf Dolls and JJB's oh my!!!

So there are two material things I am really "hooked" on right now.  Waldrof dolls and of course my JJB's!!  I would really like to get Diem one of these dolls for Christmas.  They are usually made by hand and made to last!  As for "my" JJB's they are they BEST "diaper" bags ever!  Of course I only use one of them as a diaper bag...LOL!  I use one as a backpack for work and the other's for various things!  And for my PL's that read this if you plan on ordering this month PLEASE PLEASE consider ordering through my blog, that way I can get credit for your order!  Thank you SO much!

Not me Monday

Our car caught fire today, the first thing to go though my mind was there goes a better house because I wouldn't think that.  Not me

Same car would have been paid for tomorrow (today), I didn't think just our luck!!!  Nope not me!

I don't HATE the Navy because we got informed today that now we have another 4-6 weeks of waiting because of MY medical records.  Nope not me

As much as I hate it I know we need it so I'm praying we stay in it.  Yep me

I'm grateful for my friends that talk to me and keep me in the loop, because my feelings don't get extremely hurt that my "family" does not tell me shit!  Nope not me

I'm not more hurt by the fact that I'm sure there will be some b.s excuse, well if you can tell one how hard is it to type one more name?  Sorry that's my thinking.   I'm sorry if it's wrong for me to love you and care about you to.  Yeah me

And yes I know this was tech on Tuesday...and no I don't care.  Nope not me