To be or not to be..........me

I had a whole post typed out and I delted it like 5 times over.  All I want to say is this.... I have feelings to.  So please stop/don't:
Lie to me
Use me
Laugh at me/behind my back
Be mean to me/Keep being mean to me
Make me cry
Being sneaky
There is more but I can't think of it right now.  And this applies to EVERYBODY, just because I TRY to be happy on the outside  doesn't mean I don't cry inside A LOT.  It hurts to get yelled at for just breathing sometimes.  Or to find out your "friends" are talking about you behind your back, just as quick as they smile to your face.  So I'm going to try to start making as many changes as possible.  If it means turning into a Bitch so be it I guess.  Because for some reason people seem to be nicer to bitches....why is that?  Because apparently *I* am not good enough, the way I am???  I'm a bit confused......